Her smile used to mesmerize me. Her eyes made the stars lose their brilliance. When the wind would blow, her golden locks would flow with it, merrily, in a harmonious motion. She was perfect. And I was in love with an angel.
Sarah was the reason why I lived; the reason why I smiled; the reason why life meant so much to me. Being an orphan, my life was a living nightmare...nothing more. I had no known blood relations- I was a stranger in this unfamiliar world. But when I entered high school, my life took a new turn.
Now it wasn't only me, it was 'us'. Sarah and I spent eight years together; laughing, smiling, crying, dancing- Living life in the true sense. Worries, tension, problems, failure- We had pushed these words out of our dictionary. Till we were together, life was perfect.
But one day, everything changed.
"Josh, I have to tell you something...I should have told you this before..."
I could sense that something was wrong. Her once sparkly eyes had lost their charm.
I looked into her troubled eyes.
"What? You didn't find that dress you wanted for Lauren's party?" I merrily asked her.
She smiled. It was a crooked smile. Something was definitely wrong.
"I want to end this relationship, Josh. I have to..."
Her voice faded. I had been struck badly. It seemed as if my mum had just told me that in reality I had been dropped by a stork from heaven.
It was unbelievable; I could sense my heart beat going slow. My hands went numb, and my vision blurred.
Sarah, why did you do this to me? You said we'd stay together. You said we'd get married. You said we'd live together, laugh together, cry together. We were half-way through- and you promised Sarah...you promised that we would die together...side by side...
I couldn't say this. I had no strength. Sarah was my strength. But my angel was no longer with me.
Three days later, the phone rings. I'm too weak to get up. My punctured hands can not move. I need it...I need the syringe, the phone can wait.
It keeps ringing. I give myself a doze of heroin. It feels so good. I feel so happy, just like I was when Sarah was with me. Look what you've done to me Sarah....
I pick up the phone.
"Josh? Stacy here. Erm...well, I am really sorry about Sarah..."
My heart skipped a beat.
"Sarah is no longer with me. We broke up. OK?" I shouted.
"Josh...Sarah passed away yesterday. It was last stage Leukemia. Didn't you know?"
I dropped the receiver. My lips were trembling. A tear trickled down my cheek and then slowly beads of tears covered my nose-bridge.
It was obvious she never intended to keep her promise. She knew she had less time. She knew she would die before me. She knew we couldn't die together, side by side.
My angel left me- this time forever.